Peace

My heart is full tonight. One year ago I didn't think I would make it to this moment. And, I did. It's a moment of calm that's been a long time coming and it is full of reflection and memory. The night is quiet and my lamp is softly bright and my thoughts surround my baby tonight. He is beautiful. He is healthy. He is happy. He is Joy personified. He is safe. He is loved. His smile... is Heaven. His laugh is music to my soul. I miss him so much, but it's different now; it's survivable now. I am blessed to be his birthmother. I am blessed to have known such perfection in a world filled with sorrow. My baby boy's smile is Joy. In a world of sorrow, he is Joy. This moment is beautiful. To those of you reading this who are birthmothers, birthfathers, or first families- or anyone experiencing sorrow for that matter- who are wondering if you will ever feel peace again, rest assured Peace will come and it will be a quiet moment of reflection. i promise, in time, it will come.