Hopeful Adoptive Family: Prowse Family Spotlight

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When I was 12 years old, I moved to a new city.  I was nervous to be in new surroundings and anxious that I wouldn't make very many friends.  Not much later after I first moved in, I met Brinn.  My first thoughts were of intimidation because she was so pretty and I felt so awkward..  It didn't take me much time to realize how kind-hearted and accepting she was.  She had a big impact on me through my adolescent years because she always had a kind word to say to everyone she came in contact with.  She was a talented soccer player and she was soft-spoken and eloquent in everything else she undertook.  She had the funniest personality and the sweetest laugh and she was always up for a good laugh.  After graduation, as everyone usually does, our entire graduating class went our separate ways to conquer the world in our own special way, and Brinn was one of the friends I lost contact with.  Just recently we found each other on Facebook (gotta love The Facebook) and it's been just as easy as I remember to talk with her and catch up on the time since we graduated, so that it feels like we've always been in contact with each other. 

Brinn has a beautiful family and they are talented people.  They are amazing parents and are wanting to grow their family.  Take some time to view their blog (above link) and share it with everyone you know so that we can help get the word out about these amazing people.  Share it with everyone you know, because you never know who is going to find a birthmother who is looking for a family for her little baby.  Maybe that birthmother is you; if it is, check out this family.  They are wonderful people and they value the sacredness of a birthmother.

Babies on my Mind

It's interesting. I am so baby hungry. Truth be told, I've been baby hungry since Baby Boy was four or five months old. Motherhood is a complicated thing... beyond that "birth-motherhood" is an even more complicated thing. As a birthmother, you take joy and pride in your creation... the most beautiful creation you've ever accomplished... but you observe from a distance. My eyes are watering right now. I can't describe in words what my heart feels. My son is beautiful and perfect, but he is no longer mine. To be honest, I'm surprised by these feelings. And, I think... I know I've mentioned it in previous posts that... when these feelings hit is anyone's guess. And these feelings are hitting me again and they've come out of nowhere.

This time isn't like the last time these feelings struck. The last time they hit, the emotion was easy to recognize because it was pure sorrow mixed with quiet reflection. This time... it's confusing. I want a baby really bad. But, not just to have a baby. I'm not taking on, or promoting, the ideology that if I had a baby my life would be perfect and no longer filled with "the stuff of life" that makes life sometimes difficult to swallow. A baby is not a fix all. I want a baby because I want to start my family. There are children that are meant to be with me and I want to get them here. Just as Baby Boy was not meant to be with me... there are children who are meant to be with me and I am so excited to meet them and be with them. It's just a matter of timing. I've never been good with my life's timing and I've learned that a lot of it is based on patience... and I'm more patient now than I used to be. But patience is still hard to digest when you know the beauty that is to come.

I am in love with an amazing man and he is in love with me and we often talk about our future family and how excited we are to meet our children. He is wonderful. This is the same Mango I've always talked about. I am a lucky girl to know his love. Together, he and I are going to create a beautiful family... but, it's going to take some time and patience to get there. We are both working on our individual stuff with a united front for a common goal. That common goal is marriage to each other and it's going to take some time and that is fine. I've got time. I don't know what the common thread of this post is. I've just been sitting in my office at work today and the only thing I can think about is my future family.

I stood at the window and let the warmth of the sun flood in upon me and it was wonderful; it was the first solid stream of sun Utah's had for weeks now and it was greatly appreciated. And as I stood there, I imagined this little girl with long hair and she is shy and her presence is like the warmth of a ray of sun... peaceful, enveloping, and quiet. And... it sounds crazy, but that little girl is mine. She's mine. I can't describe how I know this, but I do and I can't wait to meet her. It's going to take some time and that is fine. I can be patient when I know that the outcome is as beautiful as the sun. I am baby hungry, but this time I'm going to do it right.